Friday, February 20, 2009

YOUR QUESTION IS AS GOOD AS MINE

Yeah, I've been sporting this very pregnant belly for sometime now. For the past 9mons, I find myself waking up in the morning very much pregnant as the day before. And believe me, I ask myself everyday, "When will this ever end?".

It has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I went from excitement, anticipation to boredom and frustration. On some bad days, I want to scream from the top of my longs and just get over with it.

When on your last few weeks of pregnancy, there's nothing much left to do but wait. Wait for that much anticipated contractions or for yout water to break for that matter. When neither occurs, you wait for that doctor's confirmation on how much dilated you are. Yeah, you can't do anything but WAIT.

I'm not a lazy ass, believe me. I did all that religious walking just to get this going. But as soon as I step out from the door, those relentless questions of your next door neighbors of "Hasn't he popped out yet?" makes me want to run back to the house in frustration. By then, I will hear my phone alerts for new messages that contains never the less with the same questions.

They say he'll come out when he's ready... When will that ever be? He'll be due this Sunday but I can't feel anything out of the ordinary yet that would indicate he's ready to vacate anytime soon.

Seriously, your question is as good as mine.


Thursday, February 19, 2009

BEEN AND DONE

♥Bold it, baby.

I've Been...
1. A child.
2. A daughter.
3. A sister.
4. A friend.
5. A dancer.
6. A member of the choir.
7. A soloist.
8. A thief.
9. A liar.
10. A confidant.
11. A mother.
12. A bitch.
13. An angel.
14. Mean without reason.
15. Hurt without cause.
16. A smoker.
17. A nurse.
18. A wife.
19. A daydreamer.
20. A bride.
21. A cleaning lady.
22. A chauffeur.
23. A traveler.
24. A writer.
25. A poet.
26. A reader.
27. A diarist.
28. Unfairly accused.
29. Jealous.
30. A customer service representative.
31. Depressed.
32. Melodramatic.
33. Spiritual.
34. Aggressive.
35. Sultry.
36. Sexy.
37. Cute as a button and ugly as sin.
38. Bald.
39. A dominatrix.
40. Submissive.
41. Vanilla.
42. Silly.
43. Naive.
44. Bankrupt.
45. Loyal.
46. Abused.
47. Neglected.
48. To every state except Alaska.
49. An aunt.
50. Mistaken for a man.
51. An online game moderator.
52. A photographer.
53. A slob.
54. In therapy.
55. Scared of the dark.
56. Intimidating and intimidated.
57. Maniacal.
58. Despondent.
59. Patriotic.
60. To Disney World.
61. To the funeral of someone who was too young to die.
62. Inside a sex club.
63. Weepy.
64. Melancholy.
65. Understanding, misunderstanding, understood and misunderstood.
66. Comforted.
67. To the edge of my sanity.

I have...
1. Committed random acts of kindness.
2. Cried without comfort.
3. Offered comfort to both friends and strangers.
4. Had evil thoughts.
5. Had more lovers than I'd like.
6. Driven too fast.
7. Danced too hard.
8. Drank too much.
9. Laughed too loud.
10. Said stupid shit.
11. Swore like a sailor.
12. Gossiped.
13. Committed adultery.
14. Left the scene of an accident.
15. Depended on the kindness of strangers.
16. Been to the abortion clinic.
17. Had more than one lover in my bed at the same time.
18. Talked behind the back of a friend.
19. Been talked about by a friend.
20. Smoked marijuana.
21. Taken speed or acid.
22. Cheated on tests.
23. Danced in the rain.
24. Made love in a pond under a full moon.
25. Watched a meteor shower from a water bed in the middle of a field.
26. Cared for orphaned animals.
27. Danced in the moonlight.
28. Cared for the dying.
29. Gotten hopelessly lost in Chicago.
30. Stood on the edge of a cliff.
31. Made prank phone calls.
32. Played practical jokes.
33. Suffered from road rage.
34. Shared secrets to my daughter.
35. Made friends with people I've never seen.
36. Had a crush on a girl.
37. Watched XXX rated movies.
38. Searched for internet porn.
39. Smoked in the boys room.
40. Gained and lost 50 pounds at least three times.
41. Had an unrequited love.
42. Written letters I never intended to send.
43. Sent letters I wish I'd never written.
44. Hated.
45. Loved.
46. Been loved.
47. Won a most improved bowler award.
48. Seen a UFO.
49. Acted like an idiot.
50. Misbehaved.
51. Fallen off a horse.
52. Been strong.
53. Flirted with strangers.
54. Ridden a mini bike.
55. Got lost in the woods.
56. Thought Big Foot was following me.
57. Had phone sex.
58. Read cheesy love stories.
59. Shared a hot tub with naked strangers.
60. Broken someone's heart.
61. Had my heart broken.
62. Had cancer.
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Monday, February 16, 2009

My life is 80% good.

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1. You're taken and happy.
2. You have at least one person you can trust fully.
3. You have at least 10 good friends.
4. You think your parents are pretty good to you.
5. You're friendly with everyone or mostly everyone at school.
Total so far: 5

1. You get good/decent grades.
2. You're a quick learner.
3. You mostly look forward to going to school.
4. Most of your friends go to your school.
5. You don't get in trouble a lot.
Total so far: 8

1. You have your own room.
2. You get allowance.
3. You have your own computer.
4. You have your own cell phone and/or phone line.
5. You have a well-paying, good job that you like.
Total so far: 11

1. You have a lot of privacy.
2. You get along with your siblings.
3. You can talk to your parents about most things.
4. You're in love with someone and happy with it.
5. You're content with the way you look.
Total so far: 16

1. People compliment you often.
2. You believe in yourself.
3. You're working on achieving your goals.
4. You're happy most of the time.
5. You rarely ever cry.
Total so far: 21

1. You have your own radio/CD player/iPod/MP3 Player/etc.
2. You don't often find yourself wanting more things.
3. You don't wish to be someone else.
4. You have a television in your room.
5. You have your own computer in your room.
Total so far: 23

1. You hang-out/try to hang-out with your friends often.
2. You get out and do things a lot.
3. You know how to have fun without going somewhere.
4. You enjoy eating together with your family.
5. You've been on at least one date before.
Total so far: 27

1. You've kissed someone other than family and friends.
2. You've had at least one boyfriend/girlfriend.
3. You have/had a relationship that lasted more than two months.
4. You know how to make the best of it when you're single.
5. You're content with your love life at its current state.
Total so far: 32

1. You have a sibling you get along with really well.
2. You get to see your favorite family members often.
3. You don't give in to peer pressure.
4. You couldn't care less about the popular kids at school and what they say.
5. You don't judge and/or label people a lot.
Total so far: 35

1. You think your life is pretty good.
2. You've never tried to kill yourself.
3. You've never self-harmed.
4. You've never been clinically depressed.
5. You have most of the things that you think will make your life complete.
Grand total: 40

Multiply your final number by 2.
That's the percentage of how good your life is.
My life is __% good.

In the past three days, I have...

♥Bold it, baby.

Household Chores
1) Mowed the lawn
2) Folded laundry
3) Cleaned my room
4) Cleaned another room in the house
5) Weeded the garden(s)
6) Cleaned out the garage
7) Swept a room in the house
8) Painted a room
9) Organized or reorganized a shelf or desk
10) Paid bills

Friends
11) Hung out with a friend
12) Hung out with 2 or more friends at once
13) Seen a movie with a friend
14) Done something stupid with a friend
15) Been embarrassed in public with a friend
16) Cried over a friend's shoulder
17) Had a friend cry over your shoulder
18) Gotten into a fight or argument with a friend
19) Made up or apologized to a friend
20) Seen a friend that you haven't seen for a month or more
21) Met somebody new

Family
22) Fought or argued with a parent
23) Fought or argued with a sibling
24) Saw a parent or sibling cry
25) Had a parent or sibling cry on your shoulder.
26) Been complimented by a parent or sibling
27) Complimented a parent or sibling
28) Been insulted by a parent or sibling
29) Insulted a parent or sibling
30) Watched a movie with a parent or sibling
31) Played a board game with a parent or sibling.
32) Seen a parent or sibling you haven't seen for several days

Entertainment
33) Sang Karaoke
34) Acted in a play or movie
35) Played in a band or performed music
36) Gone to a concert
37) Danced at a concert
38) Danced somewhere else
39) Watched a movie
40) Watched a movie more than once
41) Been to a movie theater
42) Listened to a full CD
43) Listened to a full CD more than once
44) Listened to music for over 2 hours straight
45) Watched TV
46) Watched TV for over 2 hours straight
47) Used a computer for over 2 hours straight

In Public
48) Passed wind in public
49) Dropped an armful of stuff in public
50) Been humiliated in public
51) Been laughed at in public
52) Cried in public
53) Done something stupid in public
54) Been stared at by a large group of people
55) Had an argument or fight with somebody in public
56) Created a scene in public
57) Been asked to leave a store/building
58) Been asked to stop doing something in a store/building
59) Been pulled over while driving
60) Been in a traffic jam

Jobs
61) Been hired
62) Been fired
63) Gotten into trouble with the boss
64) Been asked to do something outrageous by the boss
65) Asked for a raise/promotion
66) Been promoted
67) Been demoted
68) Gotten a raise
69) Gotten pay lowered
70) Yelled at a coworker/boss
71) Been yelled at by a coworker/boss
72) Gotten a paycheck
73) Quit a job

Depression
74) Cried your heart out
75) Cried self to sleep
76) Spent over 2 hours straight crying
77) Spent a full day crying or wanting to cry
78) Purposely brought pain to self
79) Considered suicide
80) Attempted suicide
81) Had heart broken
82) Accidentally or purposely broken somebody's heart

Anger
83) Yelled at somebody
84) Yelled or screamed self hoarse
85) Slammed door
86) Thrown something across the room
87) Slapped somebody
88) Gotten into a fist fight
90) Accidentally broken something in rage
91) Punched a pillow or blanket
92) Punched the wall
93) Slammed fists or hands down onto a desk
94) Said something to somebody you later regretted after calming down

Fright
95) Cried in fear
96) Done something that frightened you to do
97) Watched a movie that left you frightened hours after
98) Wet self in fear
99) Had anxiety/panic attack
100) Been called paranoid
101) Thought the end was near
102) Been told 'there's nothing to be afraid about' or something similar

Excitement
103) Been excited at all
104) Stayed up all night in excitement
105) Screamed in excitement
106) Felt heart race or stomach tie a knot in excitement
107) Been JUST TOO EXCITED!

Happiness
108) Sang for no reason
109) Laughed for no reason
110) Smiled or grinned for no reason
111) Felt pure joy
112) Cried in joy
113) Been surprised
114) Seen somebody cry in joy
115) Hugged a complete stranger because you were so happy
116) Hugged somebody that would be quite awkward to hug
117) Hugged somebody PERIOD
118) Had a dream that you didn't want to wake up from
119) Spent a full day smiling or wanting to smile
120) Laughed at the dumbest of jokes
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I HAVE OCD. HAHA!

♥Bold it, baby.

anorexia
you're very weak
you hate your body.
you have starved yourself
you have low self esteem
you use laxatives.
you need to be skinnier
people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat
people think you are way too skinny.
total: 1

ADHD (attention deficit/hyperactivity disorder)
you are hyper most of the time
you barely pay attention to anything.
you cannot cooperate with people well
you seem to never sit still.
you talk all the time.
you need attention 24/7.
total: 1

bipolar disorder
you can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
you are very irritable.
you barely get any or no sleep.
you are anti-social.
you have very high self esteem at times.
you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
you have thought of/attempted suicide.
total: 0

bulimia nervosa
you throw up all of your food.
you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
you have no control over how you eat.
you use laxatives.
you fast.
you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
people think you are way too skinny.
total: 0

conduct disorder
you are a bully.
you threaten other people.
you often find yourself in fights.
you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others. (ex: knife, bat, etc.)
you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
you have raped/molested someone.
you destroy property on purpose.
you always lie.
you stay out all night.
you have ran away from home.
total: 1

depression
you are always sad.
you always are crying
you find no hope in your future.
you find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
you always find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
you can be/are anti-social.
you have low self esteem
everything bad that happens is always your fault.
hope is no longer there for you.
total: 1

ocd (obsession compulsive disorder)
you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
you have to keep things in a certain order.
you have harmed yourself.
you are afraid you will get a std, aids, or any kind of germs.
you have to check some stuff over again.
total: 4

schizophrenia
you often have hallucinations.
you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
you think people are always staring or talking about you.
you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
you are very shy.
you often talk to yourself.
total: 0

I am: ocd

Sunday, February 15, 2009

RANDOM BOLDING #31

♥Bold it, baby.

I'm listening to music as I take this
I never take short surveys
Bolding surveys are my favorite
I went to school today( will go)
I got something for Valentine's Day
I know what project playlist is
...and I love it!
I used to have a livejournal
Someone in my house has read my personal diary and admitted it to me
I've been extremely paranoid before
I have been obsessed with my favorite band for years
I've heard Panic! at the Disco's version of "This Is Halloween"
I loved it!
It sucked ballsack!
When I'm mad at you, you KNOW it
I wear my heart on my sleeve
I'm not quite sure what that expression means
I've never been to a concert
I've thrown up from eating too much candy on Halloween
My birthday is coming up within the next 2 months
I'm turning 18 this year
I haven't eaten anything yet today
I eat way too much junk food
I'm a vegetarian
I'm vegan
I believe PETA kills animals
I've been obsessed with reading about serial killers before
There are some words I constantly spell wrong
I'm stressed about something every single day
I like Jimi Hendrix
I've gotten in a stupid drunk fight before and felt bad the next day
I've done more then 3 different kinds of drugs
I've tried tequila
I love getting drunk
I have a job
I get paid more than minimum wage
I collect icons
I'm an Amy Winehouse fan
I'm graduating this year [graduated.]
I am going/planning to go to college
I know what I want to do for a career
I've known what I wanted to do for years
I'm still deciding what to do
Both my parents have full-time jobs
Emo boys = the sex
I like surveys that have something for all types of people
I know who I want the next president to be
I follow the debates
I know the song "The Widow" by The Mars Volta
I love that song
It's decent.
I have more than 1 phobia
I want to be a psychologist
I'm for gay marriage
I have plans this weekend that I'm really excited for
I only live with one parent
One or more of my grandparents live with me
I live in an apartment
I use the word "like" a lot
I still say "that's hot"
I actually like Paris Hilton
I've entered in some sort of contest before
...and I won!
My best friend and I have the same favorite band
I've showered with someone of the opposite sex
I know what I'm doing for my next birthday
I know someone who's committed suicide
I've seen something traumatizing
I still like using disposable cameras
I suck at saving money
I know someone who deals some type of drug
I'm scared to go to jail
I've been to jail
I know someone currently in jail
I know someone who has been in jail before
I want to learn guitar but it's so hard
I try to keep a journal but I keep forgetting to write in it
I know what my first tattoo is gonna be
I'm addicted to Starbucks
I'm really good at math
I've been told I have a great singing voice
I've been in band
I've been in choir
I've started my own band/played in a band
I'm currently in a band
I like a type of music that there aren't many fans of
I hate where I live
I'm jealous of people who live in California or New York
I've imagined my wedding already
If I got pregnant right now, I'd keep it
I'm still friends with someone I was friends with when we were in kindergarten
My boyfriend has a job
I like the same music as one or both of my parents
I need new myspace pictures
I'm currently doing laundry
I do my own laundry
I also do laundry for someone else
My boyfriend and I want to move in together
We've talked about marriage and/or kids
I'm currently taking birth control pills
I'm on the shot
I dont care about protection
I at least use condoms
I've slept with more than 3 people
I don't believe in regret
I have 1 or more friends with a car
I have 1 or more friends that live on their own
I hate when people stand over me when I'm typing something
I've seen the movie "Keeping The Faith"
I'm a MADtv fan
My dad loves Led Zeppelin
I have friends of many races
I've been stereotyped because of my race before
I've been stereotyped by the way I dress
I hate my generation
I love 711 double gulps
My grandparents shop at Wal Mart
There are some members of my family I've never met
I've completed a 1,000 piece puzzle before
My room is pretty messy right now
I share a room with someone else
I have an older brother or sister that's moved out already
One of my parents is just a step parent
I sing loud when no one's around
I want/have wanted to be a cosmetologist
I'm a huge Tim Burton fan
Pringles are my favorite kind of chips
I have to do taxes this year for the first time
I've heard of Cutco
There's a piano in my house
I've seen a ghost
I'm interested in the paranormal
Pizza is my favorite food
I'm so glad its about to be spring
Spring is my favorite season
I live on the east coast
I've been out of the country before
I love Evanescence
I want to look like Amy Lee
There is a celebrity I'm dying to look like
I don't have a favorite actor or actress
There are alcohol bottles in my room
I have something personal hidden in my room
Leopard print is my favorite

HAVE YOU EVER...?

Licked a doorknob?
counted the tiles on the ceiling/floor?
laughed so hard you cried?
coughed so hard you cried?
seen a ghost?
failed a class?
been on stage?
sang in front of a bunch of people?
forgot someone's birthday?
returned a birthday gift someone gave to you?
kissed someone of the same sex?
been on TV/in the newspapers?
written a song for someone?
role played a character from an anime/manga/show?
written a love note to someone?
had a secret admirer?
been a secret admirer?
been in love so much it hurt?
played Dance Dance Revolution?
if so, do you suck at it?
gotten straight A's on your report card?
fallen down a flight of stairs?
fallen going UP the stairs?
proposed to someone (playing around or otherwise)?
been proposed to (playing around or otherwise)?
thought you wanted to become a teacher?
lost your money to a vending machine?
kicked/punched a vending machine in pure rage?
gotten caught in a revolving door?
kissed more than one person in the same day?
gotten so drunk you passed out?
made your own survey?
been whipped with a towel?
accidentally slammed your hand in a door?
jumped in a puddle?
gotten caught in the rain?
been to a concert?
met someone famous in person?
slipped in front of a bunch of people?
cheated on a test?
had to repeat a grade over in school?
won an award?
been involved in a team sport (baseball, soccer, etc.)?
fainted?