Monday, July 5, 2010

STRIKING IMAGES OF THE DAY 07.06.10







YOU CAN'T ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT

"You can't always get what you want
And if you try sometime you find
You get what you need"
-- ROLLING STONES



After the never ending of taking down notes and a series of late nights, I didn't get the job I was pining for. Yeah, it was depressing and very frustrating. Just when you feel confident, that rejection letter is a big slap on my face.

I could go on thinking about the answers I've made and what I did wrong but I always come up with the same truth. I AM STILL REJECTED.

Sure, the job doesn't pay much but it would have been nice to earn some extra cash while at home. I felt I have disappointed my family and most of all, I felt I've disappointed myself. How can I even begin to forgive myself for that?

R. said to take it easy, we don't need that extra money anyway and why am I being too hard on myself... Easy for him to say.

Who doesn't need an extra moolah? An extra money would have meant a new pair of shoes, a new set of clothes or a footspa appointment every month. That job could have validated my capacity to earn in this household. So sad.

To my frustration, I spent all my free time signing up to those PTC sites. A very dragging and slow process to earn (on my opinion) but it's better than nothing.

Goes I'm back to square one. I got to figure this out. Swallow the painful truth one day at a time to digest the truth that I have failed and it's perfectly NORMAL.